I want to learn the 24 form.
There are plenty of material to learn from on the internet.
I try to do it first on my own by written and illustrated description, then I follow a video.
And I find it extremely stressful.
I try to tell myself that it's OK that I can't copy his movements straight away, I will learn.
But it doesn't help
I feel stupid and clumsy and even when there is no-one watching me, no-one knows what I am doing,
I'm ashamed of myself and horrified by my clumsiness.
Because I am not clumsy. I am a lot of things, but clumsy is not one of them.
But when I am trying to follow his movements I feel clumsy.
I don't know how I look or how I am doing.
I suppose I am taking too large steps, because my knee aches. It shouldn't ache. There is nothing that would cause knees to ache if done correctly in taichi, so I am doing it wrong...
Bugger.
But I will not give up. I will take a pause, but I will not give up.
There are plenty of material to learn from on the internet.
I try to do it first on my own by written and illustrated description, then I follow a video.
And I find it extremely stressful.
I try to tell myself that it's OK that I can't copy his movements straight away, I will learn.
But it doesn't help
I feel stupid and clumsy and even when there is no-one watching me, no-one knows what I am doing,
I'm ashamed of myself and horrified by my clumsiness.
Because I am not clumsy. I am a lot of things, but clumsy is not one of them.
But when I am trying to follow his movements I feel clumsy.
I don't know how I look or how I am doing.
I suppose I am taking too large steps, because my knee aches. It shouldn't ache. There is nothing that would cause knees to ache if done correctly in taichi, so I am doing it wrong...
Bugger.
But I will not give up. I will take a pause, but I will not give up.
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